Being Good and Bad has a Price

It's very hard trying to be a good person throughout ones life. It is especially for a person whose truly been through their own version of hell. When a person finally reaches their breaking point, people act all surprised. You see the last year for me have been nothing but one bad built up to another. I always shake the feeling not to long after but this time I feel it's my breaking point. I don't want to shake the feeling anymore. It's better to feel it deep inside my heart to remind myself.

I was always the different one, the odd black sheep. My way of dealing with it was getting away to the outdoors and it always made me feel alive again. It was good when I was younger but now grown older it feels different.

When I decided to join Second Life it felt like my own fresh start. It was good and exciting in the beginning getting to learn everything and all the possibilities. However now I feel seven years later like it has consumed a part of me. Being taken for granted, lied to, cheated on, back-stabbed, used, humiliated, harassed, disgusting attitudes and any other bad shit has basically happened to me. No matter what it seems being good or even bad both have a price. Time for me to close this chapter and move on for good.

How Disturbing was born.

 

 

For a long time I have wanted to do dark designs. As much as I love my original brand sometimes I needed a different outlet. I tried creating other small brands but it simply didn't truly fit. Until not long ago it finally clicked. The brand name came to me while I was listening to Marilyn Manson. I know most people freak out when they hear his name but I can care less.

 

This is one of the first pieces I created for :x: Disturbing :x: It was a lot of fun not creating formal for once. Also being able to design in my color addiction of black and red only. Plus the photography and editing was the opposite which was also fun. I might even do some black and white photography.

 

This was the creative outlet I surely needed after recently going through some rough times. It's my way of healing and letting out my negative energy. Great friends do get surprised asking how do you do it after all that happened? Sometimes it's better for me to not answer that question because it's not always pretty like roses.